Pays to Wait

The wait hurt me bad
The wait made me feel weak
The wait seemed like an eternity
Three years has been a long time
There were ups and there were downs
We had happiness and we had sadness
But out of it all, we became best friends
Then I confessed my feelings to her
I think she had the same feelings for me too
But was bothered by the distance
No matter how much I proved I loved her
The distance was still proved too much
She found her love, while I kept on searching
I thought my life with her would never happen
But now things are turning up for the good
She has been having problems with her man
He started to treat her very differently
She says she didn’t want to be with him anymore
She wanted to be with somebody else
Somebody that would treat her with respect
Somebody that would help raise the baby growing inside her
I want to be that somebody, because I love her
I will promise to treat her with respect
I will promise to support her and the baby 110%
Have you heard of the saying,
“Good things come to those who wait?”
Well I never believed in that saying, until now
Because after 3 years of waiting, it has finally happened
I am now with that girl and I’ve never been happier
And I promise to do whatever it takes to make her happy as well
I love you Kattie!

For My Friend Bri

Good friends are always hard to come by
And when you find someone, it’s a good feeling
I felt that feeling not so long ago, 2 days to be exact
From the first time she said hello, I knew she was awesome
She is a one of a kind girl, there is nobody like her
We have many things in common and we can talk for hours
I can tell that she is very real and genuine person
I can tell if I ever need somebody to talk to, she would be there
And I hope she knows that I would do the same for her
I’m just glad to say that I’m happy we found each other
Cause you know what? I just made a new friend
And it’s the best feeling you can ever feel in life
Bri your awesome and thanks for being my friend

My Brand New Light

The darkness tried to get me the other night
I was feeling so alone, more alone then I ever felt before
The darkness was more overpowering than I ever felt it
I felt my heart weaken every second that passed by
I couldn’t handle it by myself like I did the other times
I needed help and I needed it fast before it was too late
I searched high and low, far and wide
But my search went with no prevail
I stood there very vulnerable, waiting for it to take me
I closed my eyes, hoping for it to be over
And to be surrounded with total darkness
But once again it never came, darkness wasn’t around me
Just before it took grasp of me, help came and rescued me
It was a girl, but not the girl that I was expecting
But she wasn’t a stranger to me, I knew exactly who she was
I’ve known her for not that very long, in fact just days
But she became the light that overcame my darkness
She showed me that she cared, and that she will always be there
She stood by me all night and kept the darkness away
I’m grateful to have met her, she has been my shield ever since
I love her and I know as long as she’s here with me
My darkness will be afraid to come near me ever again

For Cody

My friends mean the world to me
When I lose one, a piece of my heart is taken away
I just lost one, and it gives pain to my heart
Cody my friend, I never got to know you
I never had the chance to really talk to you
I wanted to get to know you, and be a good friend to you
I love you my friend and I miss you so much
You went too early, none of us wanted this
We were all here for you, none of us was gonna give up
We wanted you happy, we were here every step of the way
You were my friend, to others their best friend
And to one special guy you meant more, much more
You were his buddy, his best friend, his lover
There will be nobody else like you, your one of a kind
You might have meant differently to each of us
But all of us have something in common
We all miss you very much and love you dearly
You may not be with us anymore but we promise you one thing
You will always be in our thoughts and in our hearts
We will all never forget you Cody
Rest in peace now, we love you!

This Wonderful New Feeling

I have this feeling inside
It’s a feeling I have never felt before
It’s strange and different
My body’s not used to it, but likes how it feels
It’s happiness, but a strange new happiness
It’s this feeling that I have for this person
People that I know wouldn’t expect this at all
They have never seen me this way before
They would think it’s un-normal and weird
But they just don’t understand
If they knew how I felt, they would
I have never been this happy in my life
This person makes me feel alive
It’s a feeling that I don’t want to let go of
I just hope I make this person feel the same way I do
I want to make them happy and be worry free
That is the only thing I want to do at the moment
And I will do whatever it takes to fulfill it

Who Am I?

There is something I can’t explain
Something that I’m feeling inside
I’m feeling this loneliness in me
But there is nothing for me to be lonely about
I’ve got the perfect friends, perfect job
My life is just perfect, yet is not
There is just something there and I need to know what
It’s taking control of my life
It’s making me behavior unpredictable
I’m never knowing what I might feel next
All I know is I need to figure it out soon
Before it completely takes over who I really am

A New Beginning

Part 1

I started to take a walk, wanting to be alone
I needed to get out, needed time to think about things
Then suddenly it comes without warning
Everywhere around me starts to turn black
My darkness, he has returned
I close my eyes and bury my face into my hands
Hoping for it to disappear
Then I fall on my knees, feeling sharp pains in my chest
It’s like a hand has taken hold of my heart and was squeezing it
The pain starts to worsen every second
I fall to my hands and knees whimpering in pain
He says to me, “It’s time to go Mars. There is nothing for you here.”
As his hand starts to reach out to me
I close my eyes waiting for him to finally take me away

Part 2

I stay there waiting for him to grab me and take me away
Then suddenly the pain in my chest starts to disappear
I open my eyes to see that the darkness starts to vanish
The sun comes up and I hear the birds singing their beautiful song
I see a shadow on the ground and I know exactly who it belongs to
But when I looked up, it wasn’t who I was expecting
I don’t know why I expected her to be the one standing in front of me
Cause I knew she wasn’t going to want me back, she had made up her mind
But even if it wasn’t her, I was not sad one bit
Cause it was a familiar face, the one that I have been missing all this time
I stood up on my feet and looked into her beautiful dark brown eyes
She gives me a smile and I smile right back
I gave her a hug and she hugged me back tightly
I close my eyes and held her closer to me
She told me she loved me and I told her that I loved her too
We stood there holding each other close, with big smiles on our faces

The World Inside Her

I see a small window in front of me
As I take a few steps forward, it begins to grow
I look out, a smile suddenly appears on my face
I'm staring at the most beautiful place I have ever seen
A beautiful green meadow, clear blue skies and a bright yellow sun
A soft breeze hitting my face, the sun's warmth soaking my skin
I sit down and close my eyes, just enjoying this beautiful feeling
This must be the happiest place I have ever been
I slowly open my eyes, wanting to see this beautiful place again
I have never been this happier in all my life
As I stare at the distance the window begins to reappear
I guess this place is telling me it's time to go
I walk to the window and step through back to my world
I turned back around to the window wanting to see it one more time
The most beautiful place I have ever seen
But when I turned, there was no window
Just a pair of crystal blue eyes
And the most beautiful girl I have ever seen

The Light That Guides Me

I feel a slight chill in the air
Storm clouds are coming in and I feel its presence
Sneaking on me from behind very slowly
Like a silent cheetah prowling on its prey
I know its coming back to get me, but I am not afraid
The sky is getting darker and the air is getting colder
Darkness is coming in, my hope nowhere to be found
A sound of thunder, darkness telling me that he is coming
The clouds take form, terrified of what I saw
An evil grin, a sinister set of eyes, my face staring back at me
It makes me weak and I fall on my knees
With hope nowhere to be found, my hands cover my face
With tears streaming down my cheeks, I wait for it to take me
But I felt nothing and I stare up into the sky
What I saw brought a smile to my face
A bright beam of light penetrated the darkness
Breaking the clouds apart, destroying the evil face
The sun shined bright on me, it was a beautiful sight
I stand up on my feet, staring at her beautiful face
Letting her warmth dry the tears in my eyes
I stretched out to her, but I could not reach her
I should have been sad that I couldn’t go to her
But knowing that she's there, even if I can't hold her
I know my darkness can't take me away anymore

Hope Is Here

The darkness is gone
My eyes still adjusting to the light
I’m noticing things for the first time
Noticing the beauty of this new environment
Being in the dark, you forget the faces you knew
But there was a face I could never forget
She is both beautiful and exquisite
Both smart and intelligent
The one I knew would free me from the darkness
I know I had time of doubts and thoughts of surrendering
Surrendering to the darkness and to hope
But not giving up on that, she came to my rescue
She held me in her arms, the thoughts of darkness slipping away
But even if it comes back, wanting me to return to it’s embrace
I know hope is with me and I know she wont ever let go

New Hope

I opened my eyes
The sight reminding me of where I was
The darkness, the never ending darkness
The panic overpowering all my other emotions
I feel weary once more, the feeling more powerful then before
Then I remember the heavy burden I was carrying
It is killing my hope of ever seeing the light again
All of a sudden there it was, the light that my eyes wanted to see
This time I can see a silhouette in the center
I focus my eyes on it, noticing it’s human
I can hear its voice calling my name
As I start to run towards it, I felt less and less tired
But then for some reason, I looked behind me
Terrified of what I saw, It was I running after me
It was my burden trying to catch up to me
Wanting to take me back into darkness
As I got closer to the light, the mysterious figure starts to take shape
I recognized the face anywhere
She stretches her hand towards me, but before I could reach it
I feel a strong tug from behind, turning around to see myself once again
My burden tries to pull me away from the light and from her
She’s telling me to fight, but he was just too strong
I was being pulled away from her, but she again tells me to fight
I summoned all my strength and stretched, grabbing her hand
I feel the pull from both sides, tearing my body apart
Closing my eyes I turned back to myself, to my burden
Telling him, “You don’t control me!”
The pulling stops and I opened my eyes
Ready to face the darkness once more
But it was not darkness I saw, but a beautiful sunlight
I see her standing in front of me
I hugged and she hugged back
I’m finally free, free from the darkness and my burden
Now starts a new life, of hope and love

My Eternal Darkness

My eyes opened, scanning the room
I see nothing but pure darkness
I sit up, frozen with fear
I say hello, hoping to hear an answer
But I hear nothing
I stand up, say hello once again
But yet, I hear nothing
I start to run, not knowing where I’m going
No matter where I ran, darkness still surrounded me
I stopped, tired from all the running
Then in the distance, I see light
It was the most beautiful thing I have ever seen
I start to run towards it, but it gets smaller as I go
I start to run faster, hoping to catch it
Yet it still continues to shrink
One step, two step, and then it’s gone
I fall to my knees, tears streaming down my cheeks
It’s too late; I’m once again surrounded with darkness
My eternal darkness

My Burden

I have this feeling inside
A burden I can’t ignore
It wants to escape, to be freed
Like a baby kicking inside its mother’s womb
I want to free it from its prison
But somehow it just won’t go
No matter what I do, it just won’t leave
So I’m carrying this feeling, inside my heart
It’s getting too heavy
It’s making me tired
Just let me sleep, an endless sleep
So I can finally be free
From this tormenting burden